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A realization

All the time I see myself taking advantage of the small things & forgetting how lucky I am to have them. Now is just another one of those times.

It shouldn't take seeing my friend having marital problems be one of those eye openers to me, to make me realize what a wonderful husband I have, how happy he makes me & to make me realize how lucky I am to have him in my life. We had marital problems once upon a time .. our marital problems got prettyyy baddd. We uttered the d word at least once every day. We argued constantly, about every little thing. We were under each other's skin so much.

I know I wasn't a saint. We both did things that contributed to the almost downfall of our marriage. But one day we both just stopped & realized we wanted to make this work. We loved each other, thats why we got married in the first place. We wanted to be better. I can honestly say since that day forward, everything has been wonderful. Yes, we still bicker, but it's nothing in comparison to what our fights used to be. We only fuss for maybe 10 minutes & its over, & arguing isn't a constant thing. A few months ago, we had more bad days than good .. but I can honestly say since we chilled out, those good days have almost been endless. The good outweighs the bad every time, with every thing.

I feel horrible for letting things go so far & not waking up sooner, but I think it took almost losing each other to make us realize how much we need each other & how much we really, truly love each other. We're each other's best friend .. we're each other's better half.

God has truly blessed me. He blessed me with a mother who worked two jobs 7 days a week to keep a roof over my head after my parent's divorce. He blessed me with an awesome family .. I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. He blessed me with amazing best friends. He blessed me with an utterly amazing husband who I fall more & more in love with everyday, & can see myself 50 years from now sitting outside drinking tea watching our grandchildren play in the mud together, who in 48 years plan on having a 50th wedding anniversary with .. & last but not least, He is blessing me with a son, a little boy who I haven't met yet but already has my entire heart. A little boy who hasn't even taken his first breaths yet & he has already captivated my entire world. My boys, my husband & my son, are truly what keep me going. They are my fire. I am so lucky.

5:45 p.m. - 2010-01-10

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Oh, btw ..

I'm considering blogging at wordpress, considering I can actually find a good template for there.

We'll see ..

8:03 p.m. - 2010-01-09

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Idiots & their tattoos

What would possess someone to go get a Hello Kitty tattoo just because it's "cute?" I've asked myself this several times tonight, considering I know 2 people who have them. I can't wait til they're 30 & they look down at their arms & legs & say, 'why the hell did I do this?'

What if they go to college & really make something of themselves & work in a real high - class office & possible even work for the president? I'm sure that cute little Hello Kitty tat is gonna get you nowhere, sweetie.

What about when you're 80 & you're playing with your grandkids? 'Mawmaw, why do you have that tattooed on your arm?' What do you say to that?

I wonder if these people have even watched any of the Hello Kitty cartoons or played any of the Hello Kitty video games .. because honestly, the narrator's (I don't know if it's supposed to be the voice of Hello Kitty or not) voice gets on my every last nerve. It sounds a lot like Dora the Explorer just without the accent. & It's loud .. & she repeats herself. Constantly. It's so annoying.

Whatever happened to getting a tattoo of something that actually means something to you?

7:42 p.m. - 2010-01-09

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My Son

1:30 p.m. - 2010-01-07

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I'm not a Duggar fan.

I understand how Jon & Kate ended up with all their children. Kate had problems conceiving, so they had to do in vitro. They knew the risks of having this done, that they could end up with quadruplets .. or just the one they would've been happy with in the first place (not saying they're not happy with their 8). But the moral of the story is - THEY STOPPED. They decided alright, we hit 8. We're done. We have one huge happy (used to be) family.

How the hell do you end up with 19 kids? I understand they don't believe in birth control & that is absolutely fine, because I'm not going to bash someone else's beliefs. But do they not believe in the pull & pray?

STOP GETTING YOUR ROCKS OFF IN HER COOKIE, JIM BOB! Sheesh. I understand that all of their children have been absolute blessings, but they've had a child for almost every year that they've been married. Michelle Duggar has lived most of her life pregnant. Woah.

I'm expecting my first baby, & I understand how exciting pregnancy is & how wonderful it is, but I've already decided as soon as this one gets here, I'm choosing some form of birth control as soon as the dr lets me. We're wanting to enjoy our #1 for awhile, then in about 2 years we'll try for a #2.

But even still .. I know when to stop. My hubby & I have planned on 3, but I'm willing to swing for a 4th. But a maybe 4th is my limit. I don't think I'll have my tubes tied, but the hubby is insisting he gets clipped. Which is fine I guess. Either way, though, we're going to stop!

I mean no disrespect for anyone whatsoever if you like the Duggar's show. But I have no interest in it at all. Every mother to a teenager should use this family as an example, "This is what happens when you have sex!"

Which leads me to many other questions. How did Jim Bob & Michelle manage to conceive a 19th? Even an 18th? With all that ruckus & all those kids, who has time to have sex? Who has that kind of privacy? Yes, "they all have to sleep sometime," but what about the younger children? What about the babies they already have when they conceive yet another? Do they "do the deed" while Michelle is breastfeeding during the night, or perhaps changing a diaper? Sheesh.

OH WELL. That is my Duggar rant. I feel much better now that I've gotten that off my chest. Anyway .. moving on ..

6:46 p.m. - 2009-12-17

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Friends & their nonsensory

Sorry that pretty much every entry I've written lately has been about pregnancy. But pregnancy changes a lot about a person.

Ever since I've been pregnant, there's a friend of mine that pisses me off to no extent. Everything she does .. literally .. erks me in some form, fashion or way. I especially hate listening to her bitch & complain because it's about things that don't really even matter. There's always something .. it's like she doesn't know how to be happy, & once she figures it out, she refuses.

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. *Face in palm*

5:07 p.m. - 2009-12-02

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Lucky

You know those times when you take a look in someone close to you's personal life & things really aren't as peachy as they seem? Yeah, last night was one of those times.

It's sad that it takes a peek into someone else's life before you can really remember to truly appreciate your own. I can't stress how much I've taken life for granted. I never realized that even though my mom & I have had our fall outs & arguments, she did the best for me that she possibly could, with & without my dad. My mom has never resorted to drugs, no matter how bad her depression was after my parents' divorce. She worked her ass of to make money to keep a roof over my head, water, electricity, & even the nonessential things in life like television (even though we truly hardly ever watched it, she kept it just in case). I'm 20 years old & I'm just now realizing I need to thank her for that.

I won't go into the whole story just in case I decide to publish this diary to my friends, but I will say this: I couldn't imagine what it's like to live everyday in fear of your mother's life, scared that your uncle is going to kill her. I am now worried for my friend & her mother, moreso than I believe I ever have been my whole 15 years of knowing them. I wish there was something I could do .. but I guess all I can do for them is just be here when they need someone.

12:36 a.m. - 2009-11-30

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The road to being a MOM

This pregnancy thing is sometimes hard work.

As of tomorrow, I will be 13 weeks. But it hasn't been easy getting here. With all of the worrying between the spotting & then the big e.r. visit the other day & now, being on bed rest, I'm sure my child will have just as much gray hair as I will have by the time it comes out in May. I keep telling myself it will all be worth it, but it seems so far from now .. any other time, winter would pass in the blink of an eye, and summer would be here before you no it. Not this year! Winter is going to creep by .. this will be the longest winter of my life! And, considering I'm due on my birthday, I feel like my birthday will never get here fast enough.

Pre - pregnancy, I was solely against abortion. Highly against it, & probably would have knocked the heads off of every female I encountered who had had one. But now that I'm having a baby of my own .. I would love to shoot them between the eyes. People always say, "you don't know what its like til you have your own." You're damn right. The feelings I have when watching those ultrasounds, seeing my baby swim around & play in its little placenta .. how could I just give that up? The answer is simple: I can't. & I won't. This is mine. Nothing can compare to feeling the emotions you do when you see your baby on that screen. Nothing. It's incredible. Hearing the heartbeat just puts the icing on that cake. The heartbeat is the sweetest noise .. and I try to re - imagine it all the time when I'm at home (im)patiently waiting my next dr's appointment (yes, I get an ultrasound every visit. Not a lot of dr's do that anymore).

I thought that maybe I wouldn't want a 3D ultrasound, because I want the baby's looks & features to be a surprise when it comes. But I know I won't be able to just say no .. lol. Once they offer it I'm going to jump to it like I'm a starving Ethiopian and it's a Big Texan 72 ounce steak. Plus, I have a hard time with patience just waiting for May, let alone waiting to see it's face! I can't WAIT to see the baby I've created, so yeah. I think I have officially changed my mind .. I want to see my baby on the 3D when it's offered to me.

People say at 13 weeks you can't feel your baby. I believe that is FALSE! Every now & then, I'll feel a tiny wriggle or movement real low in my belly. It's only for a millisecond, but I can feel it. It's like someone sticks a potato in my stomach, turns it around rotisserie style, then takes it back out .. all in a second's timing. I know this is not gas, and I eat 24 / 7, so much my stomach doesn't have time to growl. I haven't felt any kicks or punches (even though on the ultrasounds my kid punches & kicks up a storm!), but I'm assuming I won't feel those for a few more weeks yet, & that's fine. But I'm 110% sure I do feel my baby .. and I'm also 110% sure it's a boy.

You know those gut feelings you get that you're always right about? Yeah. Thats what I have when it comes to the sex. It's a boy. He will be named Jacob, & he will be the most awesome little boy I know. ♥

4:50 p.m. - 2009-11-18

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I'm 6 weeks today ..

I go to my first dr's appointment tomorrow. I'm nervous & excited all at the same time. All I care about right now if finding out if my little one is okay.

The people at the health department used one of the pregnancy wheels to predict my due date, & they all say May 20th. But everytime I calculate my own due date, I always come up with May 21st. Guess we'll found out the real date tomorrow .. =)

I'm such an impatient person. This is going to be the longest 7 months of my life!

1:22 p.m. - 2009-09-24

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I'm having a baby!

According to the 3 pregnancy tests I took yesterday .. I'm pregnant! =)

Chris is in denial. He wants me to take a 4th next week to make sure.

Guess he thinks the 3 tests lie, lol.

10:06 a.m. - 2009-09-17

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Post (Diaryland) Secret

I'm scared to write bad things about me family in my diary because I'm afraid one day they'll venture on it & find it.

1:40 p.m. - 2009-09-08

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My Future

For the past couple of days, I've been taking my future into serious consideration. I know the future is not in my hands, & I have no idea what tomorrow holds for me .. but I know that some of my actions can be responsible for some things, & the future is based all upon decisions I make.

Like my marriage. I want us to work, I truly do. I married my husband for a reason. We've been happy for the first three years, I know we can find our happiness again in this fourth. Marriage is rough on newlywed couples, especially those who never lived together until they got married (like us). Engaged couples sit back & laugh at that statement .. something else we did. We thought we knew everything there was to know about eachother, & we thought since we were fine the weekends he'd stay with me, then we'd be fine living together & seeing eachother every waking moment. I guess we have too much of eachother sometimes, & we have problems with getting under eachother's skin.

I've also read that one of the things that can make or break a marriage is the financial status of the couple. I always thought, "Financial issues wouldn't ever change my mind about my marriage. That has absolutely nothing to do with my happiness with him." I never understood until I am now finding myself in that boat .. up Shit Creek, without a paddle. He can't find a job anywhere, one that will work him more and / or pay more. But that's all on account of the fact we live in the asshole of the universe. Back to my point - if things do not clear up financial wise for us any time soon, I have no idea where this marriage will be. Because I'm in college & can't get any better right now, I'm working a lame minimum wage job at a department store. I can't afford to hold the both of us up with that kind of pay. Also, he is the man of the house; he is the one that is supposed to be taking care of home.

This brings me to my future. I cannot bring a child into this situation. For the moment, I'm not on birth control (& haven't been for the past couple months) because at the time when we decided to try to have a baby, everything was okay. But now I'm patiently waiting for my period within the next couple days so I can get my birth control back out & be ready to start taking it again. I just could not fathom bringing a baby into this world with thoughts like, "Where will it sleep?", "How will I pay for this?", "How am I supposed to get to Dr. appointments with no car?", "What if something goes wrong & I need to rush it to the hospital? What if I call an ambulance & by the time they get here its too late, when it could've made it had I had a car of my own?" (we only have one vehicle), & most importantly, I don't understand how I'm supposed to do all this without health insurance!

This is just too much stress for my 20 year old mind & body to be dealing with. For right now, I'm just going to work on my financial straits & my marriage .. I have lots of time for babies (I hope). God will let me know when the time is right ..

12:46 a.m. - 2009-08-12

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Pissed

I have no one in this world I can depend on. All I have is me, myself & I.

I'm going through a tough time right now, & for the past 3 days I've been wanting to show my mom something that is a BIG DEAL. She's been gone on vacation but told me she'd be back last night. Yeah, well .. she was in a huge hurry to get back but didn't make it back til late. Now, today, I come over early like she asked & she's gone. By the time she gets home, I won't be able to show her because the culprit will be here before she will. She's gone to also get me food, I've been starving to death for an hour. I could've gotten it myself but I have no vehicle.

Ahh, she's home now. A wonderful hour & 18 minutes later. Maybe now I can show her what I need to show her.

She doesn't give a rats ass. No one does. This is all on me & I'll be damned if I'm going to SETTLE FOR LESS THAN I DESERVE!

11:14 a.m. - 2009-08-07

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Decisions, decisions ..

Hmm .. what to do when you find out your husband would rather be with an old crush from high school than married to you.

4:41 p.m. - 2009-08-04

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God? Is that you?

Something semi weird happened today.

Me & a couple of my girlyfriends wanted to have a girls day, plus spend time with one of my best friends, Cristin, while she's still pregnant & take some pictures. On the way to meet Cristin, Mandy & I were having a conversation about something 9 times out of 10 that lacked common sense, & I got a random text message. Yes, I know texting while driving is bad. But whatever. I looked to read it & it was from a number that I have no idea who's it is (even after trying to call & text back, I still got no reply), & it said, "Cause if u tell me u love me i'll do ANYTHING 4 u." It was weird, but is semi a sign / something meaningful.

After we got finished eating, Cristin wanted to go to the Shoe Dept. to find some shoes that were comfortable for her to work in (she's 32 weeks pregnant & is a phlebotomist, so she's constantly on her feet), & I picked up a shoe on display & told her "this one looks comfy" when I noticed a folded piece of paper under the shoe. I thought it might just be something the employees did for inventory or something, or it could very well have been someone's grocery list. But I had to pick it up & read it anyway, because it's like my soul just would not let me live it down if I didn't snatch it.

So I picked it up, unfolded it & read it. It said, "Don't settle for less than you deserve." This, just like the random text message, could very well be another sign for some issues going on in my life right now .. or it could have been someone leaving a message about this certain shoe for a pregnant customer just looking for a good pair of shoes to work in, telling her not to waste her well earned money on a piece of crap shoe that wouldn't be worth wiping your ass with. I'm not sure, but I'm wanting to lean towards God trying to give me a sign more ;)

I just got finished writing in my personal journal, talking about how my marriage was starting to go a little smoother. I knew it would happen, but as soon as I finished writing he snapped at me because I asked a question about his laptop. Fucking men. They never change .. no matter how much you want / need them to.

6:58 p.m. - 2009-07-28

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First wedding anniversary .. & other things!

Random side - notes: I had a dream last night that someone died. I don't know who, but I know that I knew them because in my dream I was upset & in complete shock. Hmm ..

Anyway. The other day (July 19, to be exact!) was my first wedding anniversary. I must say .. this has had to have been one of the longest, most drug out agonizing years of my life. To be quite honest, I can't decide which we've had more of, good moments or bad ones. So let's just say they equal out. Haha ;)

The reason it's been somewhat agonizing is because whenever we argue, we don't have simple little fuss parties. We have the scream to the top of our lungs, get up in eachother's faces, don't care what the other person is saying because WE want / need to be heard kind of arguments. Yes, I know this is bad. But lately, as in the past few months, I'd just prefer to talk about everything like a freakin' adult rather than strain my voice just to make sure some idiot heard me (& heard me well).

We're just a very unique couple. I guarantee you will never meet another couple that is anything like us! We've made it a year without divorcing (although there have been some close calls), we've made it a year without knocking me up (though we're starting to talk about kids now) .. & I must admit, I have had fun. It's been nice not being lonely all the time & having someone there to talk to & do things with.

But for now .. I must log off here & go take a shower, for I am going to a concert (Staind, Chevelle, Shinedown, & Halestorm .. ick at Halestorm, though)! I am uber excited. Yay!

11:55 a.m. - 2009-07-21

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Riding In Cars With Boys

Sometimes we love people so much that we have to be numb to it. Because if we actually felt how much we love them, it would kill us. That doesn't make you a bad person. It just means your heart's too big. -Riding In Cars With Boys

4:38 p.m. - 2009-07-19

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Michael Jackson

Influenced & inspired by James Brown, Michael Jackson influenced many of his own: Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake, Whitney Houston, the Black Eyed Peas & more. Michael Jackson was a phenomenal artist & performer. He played a major role in the music industry.

Most people fail to realize this. As I have a huge sense of humor, I can listen to all these sudden Michael Jackson jokes & laugh. But on a more serious note, it bothers me when people go as far as to say "that's just another child molester off this planet."

Apparently no one has taken into consideration that out of all the children Michael has worked with, only two have claimed to have been molested by him. The first Michael paid off due to the child's huge amount of hospital bills. The second, however, was an obvious attempt to strike it rich .. at least in my eyes it seems that way. Having three children of his own I don't see how he could put himself up to hurting a child in any way whatsoever.

I'm a music lover. I love just about any & every genre of music there is. I have so much respect for Michael because he has influenced some of the artists that I love today. He has produced some bad ass songs, & for that I will forever be grateful. He was an indescribable performer & he will never be forgotten. I'm sure any true music lover would feel the same.

10:44 p.m. - 2009-06-28

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Pain

Sometimes there are things that happen in your life that are so good they make you question whether or not they're real, or if they even happened at all. Some things are just too good to be true sometimes .. So good they change you. So good that it makes you sick when you remember it, that it makes you sick.

10:37 p.m. - 2009-06-28

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Michael Jackson is DEAD!

It's so hard for me to come to terms with the death of Michael Jackson. I'm still sitting here talking to myself saying, "Are you serious?" I honestly never thought I'd live to hear anyone utter the words "Michael Jackson died today."

Now, I know he wasn't going to live forever. But Michael (as well as his health) was always the farthest thing from my mind. I know tomorrow isn't promised, but I just seriously never imagined his death ..

It's kind of funny as well as stupid, but now I've got myself worked up over Johnny Depp. Johnny is just too pretty to die right now. He can't leave me just yet .. & I wish him a much longer & healthy life, and may he die when he's old & gray! I dread the day. Ugh.

Now I'm just rambling because I'm tired & I wanted to get this I'm - in - shock - because - Michael - Jackson - is - dead post up. I just .. cannot believe it.

11:31 p.m. - 2009-06-25

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PEEVED!

One of the few things that peev me about my husband is that he is never on time. He is late for everything (he was not, in fact, late for our wedding .. & yes, I was surprised); & I'm almost positive he will be late for his own funeral.

Today was supposed to be an awesome day. We were going to hang out with a couple friends of ours because we all had the day off. Their kids are going to be in daycare until 7 tonight, so we were going to go out & have some fun together, since we haven't done that in forever.

Wrong. For some unknown reason, my brother in law had a job interview this morning at 11:30 (& they didn't leave the house until 11:30. I'm seeing now that running late runs in the family), and wanted my husband to go with him. It is now 3:11 p.m., and they are still not back. The day is almost gone, and it's storming outside. I am showered, dressed, all ready to go (hair & makeup, too) .. alone.

What is the point in telling someone you'll do something with them & then not pulling through? I've always been taught that if I'm going to do something, then do it. Our plans were made first to go with our friends. If for any reason whatsoever he thought they were going to be ruined, he should've warned the other 3 about it ahead of time so perhaps their day wouldn't be wasted.

Despite the fact of how mad I am, I should be used to this by now. He always does this; always breaks promises, always breaks plans. It's not fair to me.

I am 9 different kinds of pissed off right now.

3:08 p.m. - 2009-06-18

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Before today even begins ..

Despite the fact I'm up hideously early, & I'm too busy looking at other people's Facebooks & being nosy .. I hope today is a good day. I don't want to work today. Seriously. But I keep reminding myself that I'm a good, hard worker & I'm a dedicated employee ..



LOL!

8:18 a.m. - 2009-06-16

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The highlight of today.

A few days before I realized that father's day was in a couple weeks, my dad had mentioned that he wanted a kite because he wanted to take it on the mountain he rides on & fly it. At first, I was dumbfounded at what to get him, until I remembered our conversation about the kite. So, since I didn't want him to get a little dinky thing from Wal Mart, I got on Amazon & ordered him a nice sports kite that wouldn't break easily.

Father's Day is next Sunday. Due to the fact I don't get to see my dad much, I knew I wouldn't be seeing him Sunday, of all days. So I couldn't contain my excitement anymore & took him his kite today. Needless to say, he loved it!

But, to my surprise, he'd also caught me - wait for it .. wait for it! - a baby mouse! I was so excited, because I'm a HUGE animal lover. He originally had it in a little box, but then we transferred it to a big glass jar & put some grass in it.

My baby mouse!


She was not a fan, lol.



"Mom, I can't believe you're doing this to me .."

8:04 p.m. - 2009-06-15

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Hm. Ramble.

It's Sunday. & Thank goodness I don't have to work. I'm getting so sick of that place. Everyone has just had attitude problems lately & they feel like just because they don't feel good or they're having a bad day they have the right to take it out on other coworkers. Sometimes I really really hate my job & the people I work with. But most days, I love it, & I love them like family.

I'm not quite sure what I'll be doing today. I *really* want to go see J & Syndi. I miss them & the babies. I haven't seen them in like .. a month. At least it seems that way. I could be exaggerating a little, because I'm just that good at it ;) But I'm also not keeping count.

All last semester I seriously couldn't wait for summer to get here. I think it's only because I didn't want to have a lot to do. I'm under the impression that the summer break is going to fly by very fast, considering it's already June .. & I feel like I'm still at the main beginning, like the semester was over a week ago. In all reality - I have no idea what I want to do this summer. I want to hang out & see my friends, but I'm not sure where I want to go.

No matter where I go, though, I DO know that I must go to Knoxville. It's a must that I make it there, because I'm graduating in 6 short months *hopefully* & I will need a place to stay there. Thankfully, I'm off tomorrow as well, so I can peer pressure Chris into calling for me, considering I'm not very good with words. lol. He knows how to talk to people .. that just so happens to be a quality that I lack. I get so nervous building up the courage to call someone I've never met in my life & by the time they answer I get so flustered that I get tongue tied & I have no idea what questions I want to ask them about whatever it is I'm calling for ..

OH! I do however know what I need to get done today. I need to figure out which cell phone provider to go with before September, because I absolutely will need a cell phone. There is no doubt about that. I have too many problems with my home phone to not have one, & I have too much going on in my life to not have one. The only sad part about it isss .. I'll have to pay the bill myself. lol. I'm used to being on my mom's plan, but because she's either at home, work, or the boyfriend's (who's cell phone number I have in case I need to reach her), there's no big reason for her to need her phone. She's a busybody, but I know the 3 main places she'll be. If I can't find her at one, I just go to the next. Another reason why I'll need my phone is because I have a hoard of friends that I love to keep in touch with. My cell phone is the connection to the outside world, sadly .. most think, "Well why can't they message you on myspace?" The answer is because I just opened a new one, & I haven't gotten around to adding every frickin person I know yet. I had almost 500 friends on my last one, & I deleted it because I was so sick of seeing everyone's perfect lives & happy marriages & beautiful babies that I just deleted it, because I wasn't going to continue to let myself get me down. It's not fair to me. I deserve to live a happy life, too. But I'm also not adding back the people that affected me that way .. so I don't get myself worked up like that again.

So, that's it for right now. I'll bbl, I'm sure ♥

1:33 p.m. - 2009-06-14

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I don't need any arms around me

I can't write too much at the moment, considering I'm leaving for work in a few short minutes. I just want to put something on here so I can figure out if I want to 1.) keep this & 2.) what the layout & whatnot looks like.

2:09 p.m. - 2009-06-13

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